Seeing a number above 120 on my meter is like receiving a C in school.
Seeing 200 or above is like utterly failing.
I don't like how I can't control this all too well. Before my last endocrinologist visit, I thought for sure my HBA1C would be not too good- a 7 or so- yet it was quite acceptable (though still diabetic). I dread this upcoming visit, too, because I don't foresee having a good number (miraculously) again. Too many 200s. I hate to know that the damage is- and will- add up. But I hardly know what to do. Should I eat more fat? Less? Should I take insulin or eat less carb? If I exercise for 30 minutes, will my blood sugar be alright if I eat this extra portion? Etc. My guessing-game almost always is off. But how could it be anything but? I am not a pancreas, I don't know how to be one, and I don't want to be one.