Friday, February 19, 2010

How Dear to Me is the Flannel of my Childhood

Today I ventured to give blood for the first time. My school hosted a blood drive, and with my not being on Accutane any longer and with the thought of those who might dearly need O- blood, I knew I had to volunteer myself to give a pint of the red water to whoever might eventually come to need it. So I signed myself up, despite my terrific fear of needle entering my bloodstream and extracting blood and prayed and prayed that I be helped through.

Baby that I may very well be, I laughed and cried- though not out of pain- after the insertion of the needle. I drew stares of wonder from my fellow blood-donor peers. I composed myself and fought the primitive terror that welled within me. I took comfort in my flannel- which is beginning to show its age terribly, alas- laying upon my lap. I lay in discomfort until the required amount of blood was drained.. But when they removed the vampirous needle, I began to cry out of impulse. I felt ill and weak and a primal fear of losing consciousness.

Being about to faint- really, really about to faint- is strange. I didn't want to revive myself. I felt like fainting- dying, really, but fainting would have felt like the same thing at that moment. I hated that feeling with a burning flame..

2 comments:

Marvin said...

Aren't you too young to give blood?

I am O+. We are the universal donors.

Fainting is not much fun. Especially if you're already lying down. Then it becomes a seizure, which really hurts because every muscle in your body contracts as hard as it can. When you wake up, you literally feel like you've been run over by a truck.

Lydia said...

No, I am not; the Florida Blood Service lets 16 year-olds donate so long as they meet all the normal requirements.

I think I am O+, as well. I would be super-universal if I were O-, like my mother (who is too tiny to donate blood).

Also, I have fainted once before.. And I know that it's not fun. I did not know, however, that if you're laying down it's even worse..